(Originally published to my Livejournal, Creamsodaangel)

Today is the first day out of my entire trip that I’ve started to really feel homesick. I was only a little homesick before, which was small enough that I managed to brush it aside and generally feel good. But today I’ve been hit with a bought of loneliness that I can’t shake.

Part of it is because my friend Paul from the UK, whom I talk to every day, is currently away on holiday with his family in Mexico. So he is internetless. I miss him very much.

Another is my roomies, who don’t have the same days off as me. It makes it difficult to see them then, as sometimes I can go for days and not see or talk to any of them. Kelsey just becomes “that girl in the other bed”.

I think the clencher was a message I got earlier from Imagine, a girl from the Sorcerer radio boards. I was gonna meet up with her and her hubby, as well as another member of the boards to say hello. Then suddenly this became a huge meetup for Sorcerer Radio (well, not huge). But then in a message it said they would all still love to meet me, but that they all had dinner reservations at 6, and they wanted to let me know so I didn’t feel like they were abandoning me. I know they aren’t, and I do know that they’re a lot closer to each other than I am to them, but I guess it just kinda dug into my current loneliness wound.

I had planned to go do Epcot by myself today, and then meet up with Kelsey later. I would typically jump at the chance to go to my favourite park, but now I just feel… blah..

I think I’m going to call my best friend and see how she’s doing.

Current Music: Easy Silence – Dixie Chicks
location: Orlando, Florida
Current Mood: lonely