Category: Life
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turtles and text messages
(originally posted to my livejournal, Creamsodaangel) Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles Movie <- The Trailer. Despite the fact that I will constantly be compairing it to the original series and movies, because those were just awesome (I grew up watching the original TMNT), I’m so going to see this. In other news, two nights ago I…
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Little wins
It seems like such a little thing: taking the dog for a walk. People do it everyday. But for me its become a major stressor. Things I used to enjoy now trigger my anxiety badly. Writing, drawing, walking the dog, exercising… things that made me feel good have somehow become wrapped up in the trauma…
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So, How’s it Going?
Thanks everyone who reached out to me. I know I’ve been missing in action the last couple months. I spent most of summer trying to navigate side effects from the Whole Brain Radiation and the new chemo protocol I’m on, Enhertu. Together with all the other life stuff happening, my fatigue was kicking my butt.…
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Mom’s Lasagna
I made a heckin’ good lasagna this past weekend. I’m not a professional cook by any stretch of the matter, but it was just so darn good and fulfilling to my spirit. It made me want to share it with all of you, so now me sharing recipes here on the blog is something I’m…
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Let’s Fry That Noodle: Full Brain Radiation Therapy
When I was told I need to get full brain radiation treatment my world stopped. It sounded like the absolute worst type of therapy I could receive. Don’t get me wrong, it is absolutely intense in the way we need it to be in order to get this shit (cancer) under control. Our goal is…
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The Light in the Middle
One of the most diffcult things I’ve found in living with stage 4 cancer, is the lack of stories of each other. Don’t get me wrong. I know how this story ends: I know the timeline, I know the side effects, I know things are going to suck. I’ve done plenty of raging and crying…
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Rage Against the World
This is not the news I wanted to share today, instead it’s a flaming hot pile of bullshit. But here we are. Last week I got CT scan results back. Apparently the cancer has metastasized into my brain. It has caused my right hand to go numb, and causes a bit of tension in my…
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For Mom
I wrote this eulogy for my wonderful Mom, Lorraine, who passed away from stage 4 breast cancer. I’d been struggling to come up with what to say for today’s celebration for my Mom. Grief avoidance? Probably. How do you take all those memories of one of your favourite people and condense it down into a…
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Fiery Poops and Brain Fuzz
It still almost doesn’t feel real. Here I am, a week and a half after my first chemo treatment and it’s still hard to believe that I have to deal with this shit again. Last week was probably a lot harder than it needed to be, given that it was Christmas. I really wanted to…
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This is my “This is Bullshit” face
This is my “this is bullshit” face. I never thought I’d be here the first time. I hoped I wouldn’t be here a second time. But here I am. Last week we learned that my breast cancer has returned and has metastasized into my lung, liver, and bones. In March I had reached my 5…