Author: Andie

  • Fiery Poops and Brain Fuzz

    It still almost doesn’t feel real. Here I am, a week and a half after my first chemo treatment and it’s still hard to believe that I have to deal with this shit again.  Last week was probably a lot harder than it needed to be, given that it was Christmas. I really wanted to…

  • This is my “This is Bullshit” face

    This is my “this is bullshit” face. I never thought I’d be here the first time. I hoped I wouldn’t be here a second time. But here I am. Last week we learned that my breast cancer has returned and has metastasized into my lung, liver, and bones. In March I had reached my 5…

  • Legends & Lattes

    “I’m… not really good at speeches. So I won’t try to make a good one. But I wanted to tahnk you, all of you.” Her eyes suddenly stung. “This… all this… This was a gift you gave to me. And I…” She grimaced at Cal, and then at Tandri. “I didn’t deserve it. The things…

  • Fingers to Keyboard

    Last night, for the first time in a very long time (six months? A year?) I actually made time to write again. I decided at 10pm that I would spend an hour writing. I haven’t been doing things to fill my bucket lately (baby, business, etc), and especially 2022 was so stressful, so my goal…

  • The Dead Romantics

    “I believe people. Even if it’s weird, even if it doesn’t make sense, I want to believe them. I want to see the good in them. I give my heart to everyone I meet and I put it in everything I do. And sometimes it hurts–often it hurts, actually…” And I glanced back to Ben,…

  • Participant of Hope

    This past weekend, I was honoured to be the Participant of Hope at the Fraser Valley Relay for Life for the Canadian Cancer Society. I got to share my story, so here it is! This is a story about Dungeons & Dragons. And about Fundraising. Little of both. The first time I fundraised for the…

  • They Promised Me the Gun Wasn’t Loaded

    “Those are the only two possibilities?”“Those are the only two probabilities,” Calon says, “I would never pretend to know what’s possible. [They Promised Me the Gun Wasn’t Loaded by James Alan Gardner]

  • Perchance to Dream

    “The action doesn’t have to be explosive to be effective.” [Star Trek: The Next Generation #19: Perchance to Dream by Howard Weinstein]

  • Expectations

    cw: body image, cancer, infertility “I didn’t know you were expecting!” Well-meaning words, the speaker wanting to share in your happiness. They come from a place of joy, not malicious intent. And yet, they cut deep. Five years ago, I was diagnosed with stage 3 breast cancer. I had a single mastectomy then to remove…

  • Favourite games of 2018

    Favourite games of 2018

    According to my BGStats game app, I played 78 different games last year. That’s a game and a half for every week of the year! While many were repeats, I did manage to get in many new-to-me games. Here are my top new-to-me games of 2018, in no particular order. One Night Ultimate Alien Okay,…